Listen. Time passes.

At first, this whole idea seemed to me too silly, but my friend has this great ability to make other people believe in him and do the things, which you would never do.

So, there I was – standing on the edge of the cliff. The gentle breeze coming from the sea, plays in my hair as though there is nothing else more serious to do right now. I have stopped looking down, because the view does not change, only the distance becomes as though shorter. If you ever get in such a strange situation as I am right now, please, take my advice – better look what is in front of you! It might be the last thing you will ever see in your life. This is the reason to remember all the single details about it.



The friend is lying in the grass, and chewing a culm. He looks very satisfied, as though enjoying his victory over my weak character. Let him have this one moment of victory! I might be in this kind of situation myself, too. I look at him and I try to tell him so much, but lips do not move, because they know it is useless. I know he is only playing with me, fooling me and showing his best tricks he has learnt from me. It is nothing serious! I know him! He has done it himself couple of times. He says that this sometimes can be real fun! This was actually the only reason why I agreed to his proposal.



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The sun has almost disappeared behind the horizont. The sea becomes filled as with blood. It is getting cold. I stand up and throw away the culm. I look at the watch and some of the grandma’s cookies come into my mind. Joseph has been standing there for quite a long time. Before coming here, I thought if he would manage to go through this! I remember myself standing for the first time on the edge, where time stops. I had some problems at the colledge and I broke up with my ex-girlfriend. That was the time when all my dreams and thoughts were crashed into small pieces and it was the time when I found this place. I was then nervous, angry and exhausted, but when I stood the same way as Joseph does now, I felt myself so calm as if all these problems did not bother me at all or maybe they were just so silly on this great scale of seriousness. I know that Joseph is having a hard time now, too. All these problems with parents have made him so quite and lonely. I can see that in his eyes. This is the place which Joseph will never forget.



I remember my feelings being here…

While standing there, the breathing is not needed, only the focused sight on the falling red ball into the sea is the thing which really matters. Here, you are absolutely alone as if all of them are in these wild waves of the sea down the cliff. There was a moment when I wanted to follow the birds and dissapear beneath the banging surface. Most probably, my problems were not actually so important and I managed to go through it and refused from jumping.

Joseph is standing there too long. We have to go back.



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‘Joseph, it’s enough! I am really starving and so must be you. We have to go, my friend.’

No response.

‘I know you can go on like this forever – confessing and thinking over every single piece of your exciting life. You have tried to resist for such a long time, and now you have finally come to the edge, where the time stops. Is it really what you wanted? I really do not want you to ignore me or more than that – adore me! Stop begging the time to stop just for you. It won’t ever happen! Do you hear me? Your time has passed as my did. Let it go! Turn around and continue living with the memories of what you experienced a moment ago.’

No response.

‘You are only spoiling everything right now. I know that you can see it, almost hear it and taste it, too, but these are the rules. You have to obey them! Please, close your ears and eyes and try to look away. Focuss your sight on something else. You can look at me! I am your friend, have you forgot about that?’

No response.



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The shouting of my friend makes me smile a little. What is the nonsense he is telling me now? He speaks just as my father does. Every time I find something that really attracts me, they just try to take it from me. My mother is also all the same. They are telling me what to do all the time and they opress me by that so much. I know myself and I know what is good for me. And now, I feel that the time has come and no one will take this moment of victory from me.



The birds are so marvelous. They are free. Just as I am right now.



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The sun was already disappearing behind the horizont. The silence was grabbing everyone’s breath. Even the birds did not allow themselves to be loud as if afraid of disturbing somebody. Just then, when the silence became too loud, the body of a young man spreading his arms as birds do, flew down from the cliff. He had a smile on his face as if he had reached the highest point of satisfaction. Nothing mattered to him anymore. It was the moment when the time stopped for him and it was the last dawn of the sun which he will ever see again.